Hm

Still stuck on thoughts of the ex. Found a cool bridge from a song.

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

Revision

You look at me and you wonder why I hate you?

When I saw you the other day.. It brought back every fucking memory of every time you broke my heart. I'm still recovering from seeing you. I hate you more than  anything on this entire earth because you lied to me, you cheated on me for years.. All you had to do was leave. Instead you chose to play a poor depressed girl for everything she had. What you did was inhumane, it's disgusting. I hope you're happy with that you've got now. Compared to what I have now it's nothing.

Headache.

My head absolutely aches from the stress of the past week or so. Moving to Canberra is not a simple operation. So today I started putting things into boxes. I have two boxes of DVDs and CDs, and three boxes of clothes... SO FAR. There are more clothes in the closet. I also am yet to pack away my guitars and it's a stressful process..

My mother is driving down from Canberra to Hobart arriving here on the 6th.. Or at least that was what was supposed to happen, now however my Father seems to think she cant handle the drive, so I dont know what the fuck is going on which makes me angry. But it will all work out in the end I am sure.

So tomorrow is my farewell party, which is a barbeque at a local park because I couldnt have a proper party. So about 40 people are coming to this park and I really hope I dont get arrested for it. I dont know what the laws are about these types of things.

After that my closest friends are sleeping over for a night of DVDs, drinking and talking.

I am going to be attending the University of Canberram, studying a bachelor of applied science majoring in human biology.

My courses for the first semester are as follows

- Chemistry
- Biology
- Anatomy and Physiology
- Psychology

Just on a side note, I would like to inform all that I am officially over my ex boyfriend. I have figured out what a total bastard he was to me and I am not wasting my time feeling pain. That said he has my guitar amp and I need it back which is driving me insane.

So my head aches, but Im not sure if it's the stress or the flu I am apparently coming down with..

Today I did a video conference for my work placement and was able to see my friends from the camp in WA. I miss them so much, two people said special hellos to me in their speeches. This made my day.

All in all I have actually been very happy recently. So on that note lets hope that everything goes smoothly and I will most likely blog again when I arrive in Canberra.

New Years Day.

January 1st 2009 was a bad day for me...

First I began 2009 at a concert surrounded by people in love, of course my current relationship predicament, caused me to be depressed by all these happy couples, kissing and singing and fucking in public... ( oh yes)




Cut to this image, I have omitted faces for obvious reasons, however the man in the blue t shirt is the person I want you to focus on. At about 12:30 on the 1st of January I watched this man get a hand job by his small asian partner ( girlfriend/ mail order bride?) whilst dancing in a mosh pit. Delightful, I know.. The day got worse.




Cut to picture number two. This woman was older than my mother, and she dressed younger than I do... This of course reminded me that I not only am so out of touch with my generation it hurts, but there are people older than me having more fun that I am..

After that New Years Day went in a blur of sleep and dizzyness for I awoke with the flu. Hooray for me, I now cannot speak and when I stand up I feel like falling over again.

Happy Fucking New Year.